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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 00:27

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But, we were locked up after school.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Would this be the day?

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I was scared of men, in general

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

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She was in good health!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I am 13 and I am planning to run away. What should I do to succeed?

We all went to grammer schools

She found it foreign!.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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My family never makes their pension either.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Where did Noah build the Ark? Was it in a desert or near water?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Put me off passion for life!!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

So whats the point in blame.

I write beautiful poetry .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Was to survive, this bastard.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was very sick at this time too.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

So, i spoilt her more .

Especially a lifetime of it.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But ive been too sick for many years..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

And i lived it daily.

What did i know ?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I waited trembling.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I think the readers, may guess!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

(And it was in our own minds.)

She loved him until the end.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But it wasn’t much.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

It was going to be , some day.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He knew the spot.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He resisted the act ,that day.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

We were not on the streets..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Ive learnt so much.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was seconnd youngest,

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She married twice! .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Im still living with it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I will be 64.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

All the time i was locked up.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As i do to all so called friends.?

Comes on , in middle age.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I said to her

This is soul school!.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Who then, do I blame.?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

One cannot live in the past .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I never cut or harmed myself..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She wouldn,t have been !

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I don,t even have a pension.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

When she asked me how she looked .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My life is so biszare .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I could never make a relationship work though!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I have no regrets .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I was 9 years of age.